Reason I am here

Well hello! First of all I named by blog after a wonderful song by Casting Crowns.  The lyrics to the song describe how I feel about my life and where it has ended up.  While I have much to be thankful for, unfortunately at this time my life is turning upside down. 

My husband and I have been married for just shy of 18 years.  For many of those years he has struggled with addiction.  His addiction is primarily to the prescription drug xanax, however he has had episodes with Soma's and most recently loratabs.  For years I was able to make excuses for him and his behavior. Yet, in recent years everything has spiraled out of control. I can no longer hold things together and so many people have seen through the excuses anyway. 

Well due to my faith in God, I am working extremely hard on letting go of trying to control everything and leaving things in his hands.  It is difficult but I am trying.  As the song "Slow Fade" says... "Nothing ever crumbles in a day" and as you can see I was able to hold onto things for a long time... almost 18 years ago, so it really has been a slow fade coming...crumbling... but this is my life.... for now, with God's help and God's mercy, I am hoping that I can slowly begin rebuilding. 

Well that was my introduction more to come later.

Peace!